[Spot doesn't know why Jack isn't meeting his gaze, but he's grateful for it. He doesn't know how to feel about this, and feelings have never been Spot's forte. He's angry, and he wants to hold on to that, it's familiar and biting and it's been his driving force for as long as he can remember - he's angry at whoever did this, whoever dared to jump a borough leader. But it's not just about that, and deep down he knows it, it's not about the fact that they attacked Jack Kelly, leader of Manhattan - it's the fact that they attacked Jack, it's something personal and visceral that makes him angry about this, and he really doesn't want to examine that too closely. It's the worry that he doesn't like
He rinses the blood and dirt out into the bowl and turns back to start cleaning off Jack's hands. He raises an eyebrow at the comment, not looking up from Jack's hands and instead injecting all his disbelief into his tone]
Yea? A mugging, Kelly? What fuckin' muggers would go after a newsie, they know we ain't got no money
Well, they wasn't going after no newsie, was they?
[Not a newsie. A girl, and maybe it was something more than a mugging, and maybe Jack just can't stand to see such things, no matter how tough the city tries to make him. Five on one, but hey, she'd gotten away, and that's what matters, right?
Ow, and he hisses in pain despite himself, his fingers jerking automatically before he stills them once more.]
They was going after a girl. I said no, they didn't like that so much. And here we are.
[Yea, he gets that. It's less well-realised outside of Brooklyn but a significant chunk of Spot's fierceness was always in defence of somebody he cared about - that was how Spot showed he cared. He understood the need to step in to defend somebody who couldn't defend themselves]
Sorry.
[He mutters the apology without thinking when Jack flinches away, and when he resumes he's even more careful than before]
You're an idiot, Kelly. You shoulda had backup.
[But he's not judging, not really. He's just mad Jack got himself hurt. There's something else, too, something he knows he shouldn't ask but it's just there hovering over him and he can't help himself]
[Ah. One of the harder questions, then, and he doesn't answer right away. Just watches as Spot cleans him, over and over, his hands so terribly careful.]
The hell do you want me to say?
[It's rough, but not angry. Just tired.]
Why the hell do you think? I'm--
[Why didn't he go to David? David doesn't give a shit about power, he would have taken him in . . . but ah, Davey doesn't get it. He might, someday, but for now, no. And the boys at home would fuss, and he'd lose power, but that's not a reason either. He's charismatic enough to get it back. It's just--]
[The explanation hits him like a punch in his gut and he stills, one hand still wrapped around Jack's, holding it still, the other clutching its cloth stopping just millimetres away from the broken skin of Jack's knuckles. He shouldn't have asked, doesn't know why he did, he already knows that answer, he feels it in his soul - but he has no reply, nothing he can say, not out loud.
Nothing that won't shatter the fragility of this moment, that won't ruin... won't ruin what? It's a long enough time since they've gone to one another that you couldn't say there was anything between them, anymore, not really. Only it still hovered there, making Spot's chest ache in ways he refused to acknowledge. There's nothing to ruin but his own reputation, and Spot clings to that like a shield, even if he did trust that Jack would never repeat anything Spot said to him in private.
So he finishes cleaning up Jack's knuckles and drops the soiled cloth aside, reaching for the bandages. When he finally does speak, he doesn't acknowledge Jack's words]
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Date: 2020-05-02 10:03 pm (UTC)[Spot doesn't know why Jack isn't meeting his gaze, but he's grateful for it. He doesn't know how to feel about this, and feelings have never been Spot's forte. He's angry, and he wants to hold on to that, it's familiar and biting and it's been his driving force for as long as he can remember - he's angry at whoever did this, whoever dared to jump a borough leader. But it's not just about that, and deep down he knows it, it's not about the fact that they attacked Jack Kelly, leader of Manhattan - it's the fact that they attacked Jack, it's something personal and visceral that makes him angry about this, and he really doesn't want to examine that too closely. It's the worry that he doesn't like
He rinses the blood and dirt out into the bowl and turns back to start cleaning off Jack's hands. He raises an eyebrow at the comment, not looking up from Jack's hands and instead injecting all his disbelief into his tone]
Yea? A mugging, Kelly? What fuckin' muggers would go after a newsie, they know we ain't got no money
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Date: 2020-05-02 10:13 pm (UTC)[Not a newsie. A girl, and maybe it was something more than a mugging, and maybe Jack just can't stand to see such things, no matter how tough the city tries to make him. Five on one, but hey, she'd gotten away, and that's what matters, right?
Ow, and he hisses in pain despite himself, his fingers jerking automatically before he stills them once more.]
They was going after a girl. I said no, they didn't like that so much. And here we are.
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Date: 2020-05-02 10:51 pm (UTC)Ah
[Yea, he gets that. It's less well-realised outside of Brooklyn but a significant chunk of Spot's fierceness was always in defence of somebody he cared about - that was how Spot showed he cared. He understood the need to step in to defend somebody who couldn't defend themselves]
Sorry.
[He mutters the apology without thinking when Jack flinches away, and when he resumes he's even more careful than before]
You're an idiot, Kelly. You shoulda had backup.
[But he's not judging, not really. He's just mad Jack got himself hurt. There's something else, too, something he knows he shouldn't ask but it's just there hovering over him and he can't help himself]
Why'd you come here, Jack?
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Date: 2020-05-03 05:38 am (UTC)The hell do you want me to say?
[It's rough, but not angry. Just tired.]
Why the hell do you think? I'm--
[Why didn't he go to David? David doesn't give a shit about power, he would have taken him in . . . but ah, Davey doesn't get it. He might, someday, but for now, no. And the boys at home would fuss, and he'd lose power, but that's not a reason either. He's charismatic enough to get it back. It's just--]
Who else can I go to, Spot?
You're the only one.
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Date: 2020-05-03 08:02 am (UTC)[The explanation hits him like a punch in his gut and he stills, one hand still wrapped around Jack's, holding it still, the other clutching its cloth stopping just millimetres away from the broken skin of Jack's knuckles. He shouldn't have asked, doesn't know why he did, he already knows that answer, he feels it in his soul - but he has no reply, nothing he can say, not out loud.
Nothing that won't shatter the fragility of this moment, that won't ruin... won't ruin what? It's a long enough time since they've gone to one another that you couldn't say there was anything between them, anymore, not really. Only it still hovered there, making Spot's chest ache in ways he refused to acknowledge. There's nothing to ruin but his own reputation, and Spot clings to that like a shield, even if he did trust that Jack would never repeat anything Spot said to him in private.
So he finishes cleaning up Jack's knuckles and drops the soiled cloth aside, reaching for the bandages. When he finally does speak, he doesn't acknowledge Jack's words]
I gotta wrap your ribs up now.